
For a moment she sat still
The voices vying for her attention
became quiet, and peace arose
No longer dark, nor confusion to harass
It is a place of truth, lies, and illusions
discerning right from wrong
Choices of who to be
And allow the spirit to show the way
You can say “no” to everything here
but to your calling
Shine oh soul and be
do not follow the mist of shadows
Let light and truth be your guide
May hope arise and correct your view
May wisdom be your bosom friend
Above all, love yourself
Without love, you cannot love another
Or embrace the day
Overcome the fear
and dare to let your soul shine

At times, you start off full of steam and vigor, ready to tackle any obstacle that comes your way. Then life throws its distractions at you, so you go this way, and then you go that way. In the end, you just end up tired. It makes you wonder, am I really a writer or just being undisciplined? Finally, you realize that your just human, and that its okay to deviate from the itinerary. Just don’t stay lost too long, and remember the goal of your journey.
There Michelle sat, looking out her window, watching the world go by. Looking at each stranger, their clothes, their walk, and wondering what was there story. It was in fact her favorite thing to do. To imagine someone else’s life, which had to be way more exciting than her own. At least now it was, since her dad’s cancer diagnosis. Nothing was really normal anymore, and she kinda felt she was always in the way. With a full house of two older sisters, and two older brothers, there wasn’t much she could really do. So her bedroom window, became her hiding place.
She would wait for the strangers to come, and dream up a life for them. Michelle was pretty sure she was way off, but who cares. In her mind, she was giving them a life they probably only dreamed of. For instance, here came a tall young business man, in a three piece suit, who was really the vice-president of a very prestigious bank. She imagined he had a town house in the city, a five bedroom mansion in the Hamptons, His own jet, and he drove a silver colored Aston Martin V12 sports car. Single of course, because he had his choice of any super model or actress he wanted. He would be one of those people her daddy said, that came from old money.
Then there was the pretty brunette in heels, and a blue sheath dress, walking her Pomeranian to the local deli for the choicest meats.A small errand of course, for Fifi the dog deserved the very best. Then the brunette was off to a party in the city, and surely would not be back home until morning. Dancing the night away in the hottest new club downtown, and being photographed by the paparazzi, and her choice of any handsome young man. Michelle sighed, yes, that would be the life, no worries, no schedules, just fun, all the time.
Last, was an elderly gentleman, who she noticed was carrying a bouquet of flowers and some takeout from the local Italian eatery. His story, she pondered. oh it was going to be the best one yet. It would be his and his wife’s 52nd wedding anniversary, and he was rushing home to his beautiful wife, while a small box from Tiffany’s was carefully hid in his brown coat pocket. He was so filled with excitement, that his smile radiated in the cool, rainy, night. Michelle had to blink, because the man really was smiling and looked very happy.
Strange she thought, neither the young business man, nor the brunette smiled when they walked by her window. Not like the old man. Interestingly enough, the old man didn’t walk by, he came up to her front door and rang the doorbell. Michelle completely forgot about her game for the moment, and made her way downstairs. It had been a while since they had visitors, and she was curious about this one.
Once, she reached the bottom of the stairs, she noticed her dad was up and greeting their guest. Mr. Brown was his name, a Professor, who had worked with her dad at the University. The bouquet of flowers was given to her Mom, and the food to her sisters, while her Dad and Mr. Brown made their way into the living room. So, Mr. Brown brought them dinner tonight, how nice of him. She was about to go back up to her room, when her brother, Jeremy, told her that Dad asked her to join them in the living room. Why she thought, I’ll just find a way to mess it up. Taking a deep sigh, and putting one foot in front of the other, she made her way to the living room.

Have you ever had one of those weeks, where you could just stop time to recollect yourself? Your busy doing the job that pays the bills, busy being responsible, taking care of that person, or doing the good, you know, needs to be done? Yes, we’ve all been there. But how did the technological advances, that was supposed to free up our time, create more work? Simple really, we filled up our lives, with duties that really don’t matter, and ignored the things that do.
Now, don’t write me an ugly letter, I speak to myself here as much as to anyone else. I often wonder, where did I get off track? Oh yes, those things we call obligations. Of course, family is important, so are bills, and food, and electricity. But what about cable, internet, and a cell phone? Personally, my own cell phone is nothing more than a glorified mini-computer.
I long for the simple moments, when friends came over to play cards. Or when my family got together to play Yahtzee or Uno. Now those were the days, we talked to one another, laughed with one another, and as usual, had to say I’m sorry (while laughing). Technology may help us to communicate with each other, but I sincerely believe, we have stopped talking to one another. Science has proven, there is nothing more healing, than the human touch, or the human heart. Yet that is the very part we hold back.
Yes, it’s been a busy week for me. And I am tired and weary, but so grateful to have a job. I think a little adventure will do me some good. Maybe even a nap (do people still take them?), or just get lost in a good book. Be encouraged to go off the grid every once in a while. And if you have a family, take them with you. It does the body, and soul very good. Besides, those are memories, that money can’t really buy.

Oh, the sweet sound of a good rain
You come in, with full warning
But you never leave me the same
Thank you for that
Pit-pat, pit-pat, is the sound I hear
While my soul hears your current melody
You know, I think you have more hit songs, than the Beatles
But who’s counting
I only get frustrated with you
When I yawn more times than I need to
My pillow starts calling my name
And my blanket wants to wrap me up in its embrace
Pit-pat, Pit-pat, as you descend upon my roof
My worries and cares get washed away with each drop
Brahms, has reason to worry about you
As you never play the same song twice
We, your fans, are most grateful for that
Now, seduce us into that beauty sleep
As gentle as can be, you are
When your being gentle
Pit-pat, Pit-pat, yes, you are my favorite tune
A #1 hit amongst the ages
Free, to all who have ears to hear
All, I need do now, is lay my head down, and sleep
I don’t want to smile, but then again I don’t want to cry either.
Every day feels like a struggle, and the path unclear
I search for truth, and find it allusive
So many lies surround me, and hang in the air
Like arrows waiting to pounce.
They lie in wait, searching for my weakness
Then strike with hurtful aim
I took a chance, a leap of faith
I opened my heart and felt again
Safe and happy I was, more than I imagined
Now I’ve been left to a waiting game
No answers, no words, no actions to decipher
To help me understand my abandonment
Crying out in the wilderness for a kind word of Truth
I remember the warmth and light
Now I’m shadowed by a mist of unknown
Keep hoping, keep praying, keep standing
Knowing at any moment I may crumble and fall
Because of the ache inside that has made its home
Comfort runs from me and I am bare
But no one sees me behind my veil
I have a smile on my face
But I’m crying on the inside
trying my best to do whats right
Weary of being hidden and alone
Not even sure if I’m living or existing
Do I have a purpose, is there any one who needs me?
Why must I always be strong?
Love why are you so far away?
What did I do wrong?
Pray tell me what’s the secret that many know so well?
I was content before you stroked my heart
Happy I was knowing my place
Before you came and changed everything
The day I felt the sun shine like rain.
How was I to know?
That I would fall for you.
I feel as if my life is not my own.
Emotions, Desires, Wants
They come and go.
It’s a battle
Nuisance or Need
To have, to touch, to feel, to trust, to let go
Walls which have been built
Round this heart of mine
Are being destroyed by love, truth, and Time
Walls that have asked to be shattered
By tender love and passion deep
Desires of the flesh are kept at bay
Am I still there master, or are You?
Words you have given are unclear
Promises of Love, Hope, and Peace?
Your fire destroys the ice
And restores unto itself
A new heart of Fire
Anticipating the fulfillment of long awaited dreams
It wants, it needs, it hopes
IT BELIEVES
I’m ready, for someone to call me their own
That I’m their whole world, and that I’ll never be alone
Someone who will dance with me and hold me in their arms
Lay beside me in the night, and meet each new dawn
One in who will thank God for his lucky stars
Why this woman has him in her heart
Who thinks he hung the moon
His treasure set apart
So tell me God, have I done something wrong
To be kept waiting for oh so long
Am I that bad….to be so sad
Where’s the one you created me for?
I have so much love to give
It’s hard to keep it all in
Imapatient tho I seem
Please help me to not give up so easily
Wipe my tears
Give me hope, and a dream
calm my fears and build my faith
For the one I’m still waiting……………..

There we were, you and I, in the middle of the valley.
So young and carefree, happy and blind to the world around us.
Then one day, I heard a voice, and it knew me by name.
Faint it was, so I paid it no mind, and joined you once again.
But then, the voice grew louder.
I heard it with such clarity, that I stopped to listen.
The stirring within, made me hunger for more.
No fear did I have of this One who knew my name.
So, I took a step, then another.
Till I had made my way down the road.
I turned and saw you, right in our spot.
But I no longer desired to remain in that place.
The Voice encouraged me as I listened.
“Come up higher, further, Come to ME”.
The Voice, I realized, I had known all along.
Confused, I was, on how the valley seemed like home.
Before long, a mountain appeared.
No path around it, or through it, so I began to climb.
The wind billowed around me, like a lovers embrace.
So joyful, so loving, as I had made my choice.
But then I looked back, and there you were.
Still in the valley, but this time you seemed lost.
But the Voice was so strong
I longed for it more, than you.
As one foot was placed after the other.
Thoughts of you kept coming to my mind.
The Voice said, “All are called, and are called by name
But few either hear, or choose to make the journey”.
“How can that be?” I cried
“May I go back, back to the valley to get my friend?”
No sooner had I asked, I already knew.
One cannot go back, whence one has proceeded forward.
I prayed to the Voice, “please speak louder”.
Then I looked back, and you were just a speck.
In that moment, I began to grieve, but then I smiled
My other half, he was moving towards me.
So thankful I was that he had heard his name.
As I watched, I knew your eyes were looking for me.
I could not stop, I must press on
Precariously the ledge I was near, the Voice pushing me forward.
I called to you, and somehow you heard me
“I’m coming” you said, “do not fret”
“Distraction and Pride kept me blind for a while
Neither did I know you had left.”
“In a moment of despair, a Voice called my name
The light, the love, the warmth it gave
Then, I too began to come
To go higher, grow stronger, and to find you!”
In a brief moment of time
A gift, none could compare
Two hearts joyfully expecting
To be happy and carefree together again
But for now, their journeys were apart
The Voice said, ” Follow me, and you will find each other again soon”
A twinkle there was, a hint of laughter in His tone
In the midst of struggle a promise arose
“I called you both
And both shall walk hand in hand
Another valley will appear
And bring you ever closer to home.”
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The view from the hill was amazing, you could see the valley, the town and the castle all at once. Farmers were working in the fields, and there was a slight breeze that day, that kept her from getting too warm in the sunshine. The beautiful violet hues, the fragrance of the flowers, the sound of wind rustling in the mighty trees behind her. So tall, that the movement created its own song, it was so lovely, and Victoria knew she had never heard anything like it. It was a perfect day, and for a moment she closed her eyes and let the moment sink in. Then she opened her eyes and just smiled. It was so nice to have a day to herself, but something in the way the sky looked, let her know something was off. It wasn’t blue, nor did she live near a castle. Where was she? To her left she saw a path that appeared to go down into the fields. She needed answers, and hoped someone could help her. So she didn’t see any other way to get to the town, and stood up and began to walk.
Suddenly, she was at the edge of fields and approaching an area with a few buildings, but she didn’t see any people. Where were the farmers she had seen earlier? As she proceeded further the path became wider and easier to travel. A house was just ahead, and she could see someone standing in front. She picked up her pace and as she got closer, she noticed the house was a stone cottage, with a very nice garden in the back, and surrounded by trees. The person she saw was a young woman, who was very tall, but graceful. As Victoria approached closer, the woman stood up, looked her in the eye and smiled. “Welcome Victoria, my name is Aithne and I’ve been expecting you” she said. “I know you have many questions, and I only have a few answers, but I find these type of conversations go better with some shokli. It is a drink close to what you call in your world, hot chocolate, and the nourishment will do you some good, why don’t you come and have a cup with me?”
For a moment, Victoria was not quite sure what to do, however, there was something comforting and peaceful about Aithne, that made her feel safe. She wasn’t sure what was going on, and she knew she needed some answers, so she sat down at the table Aithne had directed her to. Aithne poured a warm liquid, looking much like hot chocolate into both their cups, and took a seat. There appeared to be food on a plate as well, some of it looked like cookies, while others she wasn’t sure of. Aithne encouraged her to take a bite of them all, and see what she liked. Victoria found that she was hungry and her stomach was making sounds to let her know. First she took a sip of the warm liquid carefully. Then she sipped again. Aithne was right, this is just like hot chocolate, but better, oh so much better, it was like chocolate, vanilla, and caramel all rolled into one.
After she had finished most of her drink she asked Aithne, “where am I, what am I doing here, am I dreaming?” Aithne informed her she was indeed dreaming, but not an ordinary dream. The place was called Haven, a town in Trutaugh, on the planet Eldunar, which was very far away from her own. She was there, because she was chosen and would see things she would need to remember for later. There was some important information located in the Academy, which was located near the water fountain just inside the Castle walls and that she needed to go at once. Victoria did not quite understand, but Aithne was very insistent and urgent, so she thanked her and continued her way to the castle gate.
Once inside the walls, near the town square she found the water fountain. The water sparkled as it cascaded down into the pool below. Victoria looked up and began to observe the people as they walked by. Some appeared to be hurried and focused on wherever they were hurrying to. Others, were causally making their way through the shops. She noticed they were very tall, and dressed in an unusual manner. The soldiers had swords on their sides, while others, nobles possibly carried what appeared to be some sort of talking device. No one was wearing jeans, or T-shirts, or items of clothing she was used to.
Across from the fountain was a shop of some sort, and a little girl with ribbons in her hair, was playing with her doll. Victoria smiled and thought the shop looked interesting, forgetting the Academy momentarily. She walked across the plaza, and made her way inside. The Shopkeeper was finishing up with his customer, and wrapping up a purchase. It was filled with books, and the shop was illuminated by crystals, which gave an amazing light. Again, she noted this place was strange, then a particular book caught her eye. It was sitting on a shelf just near the door. She walked towards it, and noticed it had the shape of phoenix on it. She reached out and let her fingers trace the outline of the bird and could feel the warmth coming from it. It was then that this somehow felt familiar to her and she wasn’t sure why. The Shopkeeper’s customer was leaving, and as he left, he walked right through her. Suddenly she became very alarmed and startled, that the man did not see her, then the Shopkeeper looked at her and informed her the Academy was just across from his shop, and that she needed to hurry.
She walked out of the shop and quickly located the Academy, past the water fountain and proceeded there, mumbling under her breath that this dream was becoming more troublesome than it should be. Some students were walking out as she was going in, and she noticed some were very young, and appeared to be no older than ten or eleven years old. The building was beautiful, looking more like a church than an academy, as a matter of fact the whole town looked like something from the medieval days. Except there were signs of advanced technology here and there. Once inside she wasn’t sure what she was looking for, there were many rooms, and wasn’t sure she wanted to go looking into each one. And then again, she didn’t know who could see her and who couldn’t. But as she was about give up, a kind tall gentleman, professor looking chap, addressed her. “Your name is Victoria, correct?” he asked, “Yes”, she said, “then what you are seeking is in the Library located through the door to your left, and hurry, you don’t have much time”, “Quickly now, the Black Mist comes”. And then he was gone.
The entryway to the Library, was just as beautiful and elaborate as she could have imagined, but once inside she still was not sure what it was she was looking for. She looked to her left, and then right, moving forward hoping for some clue. Then a glow caught her attention. There, on an ornately carved table, set a book, with an image of a phoenix. Very similar to the one in the Shopkeeper’s store. But this one was much bigger, and the phoenix appeared to be in actual flames. Seeing that nothing else had caught her eye, Victoria figured this had to be it, and moved closer to take a look. Upon inspection, it was a foot and half long, and about six inches thick. And for whatever reason, she was drawn to it. Some familiar sense she couldn’t explain. But before she could proceed further, she heard loud crashing and snapping noises outside. She ran back out and noticed the people were frantically running towards the castle. She could just see a Black fog rolling down the hill as if it was a giant wave of water. It was moving fast, and was destroying the forest, and appeared to be heading in the town’s direction. People began screaming and yelling, and gathering what they could.
The fog somehow rose up, high above the town, and blotted out the sun, the air quickly turned cold. A dread began to rise up in her, she saw those in need, but couldn’t get close enough. The more she began to run towards them, the further away from them she became, so she gave up trying and had to stand there and watch. She too was now frantic, unsure of what to do. The screams of its victims were agonizing. It tore at her very heart, and it horrified her to watch as many died. And yet, it kept coming closer and closer and was just outside the gates, turning everything pitch black. And in moments, day was now night. Frightened, for her life, and unsure of what to do, Victoria ran back into the Academy. Crying for those who she had just watched die, and unable to help, she rushed back to the Library, towards the book and cried angrily, “If there is something you want me to know, you better tell me now”. The book just got brighter and started to hum, but nothing more. She walked closer to the book and could feel the warmth of the flames, just daring it to speak or do something.
Just through the upper windows she could see the Mist that was what the Professor called it, right? The Black Mist. The entire room went dark, except for the glow from the phoenix. It became difficult for her to breathe and hopelessness began to overtake her. She tried to stop the tears, but couldn’t. Then felt a searing pain rack through her body, it was awful, was this what those people went through? Another pain surged through her, much worse than the last. She began to pray, as it was difficult to remain standing. She could still hear the humming coming from book. Louder and louder it became, then another pain, this time she screamed out and fell to her knees. The humming became so loud, she thought her ears would burst, and another searing pain began to make it’s way across her body, feeling as if she was being cut open, when it suddenly stopped. A flash of light appeared overhead, and lit up the entire sky, she looked up and heard a deep voice behind her say,” You are the One”.
Beep, Beep, Beep, Beep, she awoke with a start, wringing wet, tears in her eyes, and gasping for air. Never had she been more thankful for her alarm than she was then. Still shaking from the images and sounds in her memory from the dream, and making sure they were no marks or cuts on her body. It seemed so real, the pain she felt, was real. What did it all mean? What sort of nightmare was this? Why did the voice say she was she the One, and the One for what?
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